Pretending !!



What else could wrong.
There are so many dreams deprived in my eyes

and so many nightmare standing awake and alert.

Every goodbye feels like a beautiful waterfall

crushing the swimmer below it.

But still I hope for swim.

No escape plan in mind.

Even when I see you leaving,

and it doesn’t matter if my eyes are closed.

You are always leaving my unconscious fantasy.

!! It’s not the destiny but curse that separate us !!

Now think of me again.
There are strings deep in the cosmos only you can see,
Hidden from the eyes of all your suitors.
They connect you to me.
Grab them with soft hands,
Let me arrive back into your time !!

It has been a Year !!



Sometime we get so caught up in our daily lives

that we forget to take the time out to enjoy the beauty in life.
It’s been a year & then I surrendered to the soft,

and the sweet and the sorrow, not shying away,

allowing each inhale + exhale to source a new life in my believe from their exchange with Nature.


I am learning to love the sound of my feet

walking away from things not meant for me.

It’s happening unintentionally.


जीवन में एक सितारा था
माना वह बेहद प्यारा था
वह डूब गया तो डूब गया
अंबर के आंगन को देखो
कितने इसके तारे टूटे
कितने इसके प्यारे छूटे
जो छूट गए फ़िर कहाँ मिले
पर बोलो टूटे तारों पर
कब अंबर शोक मनाता है
जो बीत गई सो बात गई


Nyctophilia : Warm Darkness !!



You may or may not listen
But I keep mumbling you name
On the way to endless journey
I light your memories up, to keep me warm
The wooden locks
That shut the sigh
Need to opened with the gesturing eyes
The night hasn’t ended
Since it fall I’ve been waiting

One who remembers and the one who forsakes,
suffer the same, exactly the same heartache

The Shore !!



Searching for Shore ..
in whose eyes the sun sets ..
the sun sets in whose eyes ..
drop turned saline ..
Who to ask how much longer ..
the pain we continue to bear ..
holding the hand of the blinded night ..
we must walk yet how much longer ..
drop becomes the color of time ..
that never heals ..
in whose eyes the sun sets ..
the sun sets in whose eyes ..

The Dead knows they never lived fully ..

And it never stops with death !!

Honest Conversation !!



When the lights go out

and we get to sit out in the soft light

of just a little bit of hope,

we can think of ourselves,

the nature shows her face to us

and we see how damaged we are from

ages of being

beaten down.

Being highly intuitive & energy sensitive

comes with lots of responsibility.

The first and most important is to

stay grounded.


In the middle of nowhere life is so subtle sometimes that we barely notice ourselves walking through the doors that we once prayed would open for us.

Help yourself with your inner energy balance !!


Try Again !!



A little chant may not seem like a real spell,

but it can still bring magical

results of you put your heart into it.

Use this spell when you are

looking for something

you’ve misplaced in you home.

You just need a white candle.

Light the candle,

and put it in a holder that is easy to carry.

Begin to walk from room to room with it,

repeating the following

“I need what I seek,
Give me a peak,
Draw y Eyes,
For my prize,”

Let your eyes wander around until you

feel drawn to the spot where

your missing one is hiding.

“I didn’t find mine, I have only one room to go.”

Meraki !!



Someday, we’ll forget the hurt,

the reason we cried and who caused us pain ..

I always did something I was little not ready to do ..

I was not aware where I’m steeping into,

I think that’s how you grow ..

After working on it you whispered ..

“Damn I’m not really sure I can do this ..

but you pass through those moments..

of failure while learning,

that’s when you have a breakthrough ..

and you didn’t find him to share you process ..

with whom you dreamed all this to learn together,

that’s when you think..

“Itna kyu Sikhaye jaa rahi hai Zindgi,

hame kaun se yaha Sadiyaan guzarni hai.” !!


The Things I Meant, I Wrote This For You


Who Says that !!




“Some people will only love you if you fit into their box. Don’t be afraid to disappoint.”
A world without you
The stars shine
But not so bright
When leaves rattle, the silence kill
Every heartbeat is a reminder
Of you presence
Of your memories
I hold myself together
But fall apart in a blink
I miss you in waves Bro
Places don’t feel familiar anymore
What felt right once
Feel so strong
I know i will never feel your warmth
I will never feel home safe, I will never drive with you
I miss you in my car besides me.


Meet me where the road ends, yet where we begin. I have a mystery for a quite a while now; It’s something that I like, It’s not that I want to, it’s just how a lost soul react. I can merely grassp my own experience some days, yet I take my time to unravel the universe inside me.


Same to You .. !!



Carry me in your memories so that ..
I may cheat death a little longer.
Anyway, not Happy but Birthday bhai !!
If you were here I might heard “Same To You” ..
because we are the same, on a same Date ..
in a different World.

Is that two eyes and a nose on you face?
That’s funny, I have the same in the exact same place ..
I wish I could look through those eyes ..
You can’t deny it, but you’re wearing the same smile as me ..
As different as we may see, Identical we may as well be ..

What am scared of, where does my fear come from. Tell me, we probably scared of the exact thing. If you want, we can share the same hiding place .. Take me with you for just today.


And when you remember me I bet you feel the same way ..
Different person yes,
but it’s the same magic..
because we’re the same piece of our roots.
There is no them and us ..
No they and we ..
Their is me and you ..

You and I share the same Eyes ..
Same sight .. Same surface ..
You and I share the same Heart ..
Same rhythm .. Same purpose ..
Not share the same place to live Happily ..
But we share the same Date to celebrate .. !!

“Happy Birthday Bro” .. “Same to you Bro”